I disappeared again opps!

I really am terrible at keeping this updated but this year really has been a hetic five months that I just haven’t had the time to breathe very often!!

I have just recently finished my third and final year of university which I spent at a new university as you will know from previous blogs. It’s been an insane couple of months working on the dissertation and on my journal article but I somehow managed to meet the deadlines. Now I have the anxious month long wait (or so) for the grades to come back. Crossing my fingers for 2.1 on both or even a first would be nice. But unrealistic I think :p Time shall only tell.

I also have had some sad news this year, my uncle died a week before my birthday and the reality is I don’t think it’s sunk in for anyone properly as we’re all so used to him being away anyway. But I do miss him and it was incredibly unexpected. But we we did for my Nan, he had a wonderful send off.

What else? The house is officially sold. Just waiting on boring paperwork and the likes *sigh*

I think the next few weeks are going to be incredibly difficult and not sure how to prepare myself for it. As you all will know by now, I don’t do change very well but I muddle through it somehow. I will manage not being at university okay I think as used to only being there once a week (except recently haha) for lecture & seminar. But what I will find difficult is not seeing my best friend and our friend on a weekly basis. Although recently it has literally been a daily basis. I have known R since the very beginnings of going down this road. We studied Level 3 together, moved onto HND & then onto our top up. Now both of us are looking for our first full time job in schools etc. My best friend I have known since the beginning of HND and we are very close. Sisters. It’s going to be so very hard knowing I can’t face through a shitty week by knowing I can see them in person at the end of the week for uni Some weeks that has been the ONLY thing that got me through that shit week.

Granted we will ALWAYS be a part of each other’s life as will our other friend T (who didn’t come to UCB with us). But it’s just going to be very strange and very difficult. Especially as my bestie is having a very very hard time right now and I just want to be by her side to help her through. I will on the phone but tis not the same. Plus they will be fasting for a month soon so it’s even more harder to see them…

I have also got to get used to being at work again. I have been working but since Easter my days have dramatically decreased as I was at uni virtually every day of the holidays (except weekends) to plough through it. Plus I have had interviews and such removing me from being able to work too. Although I am only going back as four days at the moment and then five when I finish seeing my wonderful mentor who has been a star through this entire semester. I am hoping to leave the agency after the summer so that will mean another change but that’s not for a while yet!!

This past week has been fun not being at uni except Monday when we handed our dissertations in. On Saturday evening I helped begin my friend’s birthday celebrations by going to the Rise & Fall of Little Voice.  thenI worked on Tuesday and then should have been working Wednesday but went to Watford to go to ‘Making of Harry Potter’ which is tour of their studios and some of their beautiful sets. I have been before and still managed to gasp at their very very bestest bit. If you have been there you shall know what I am referring to (I hope!). We finished earlier than I anticipated so we went for a wander  around Watford and had some tea. I finally had cheese on chips! This will sound weird but everybody raves about it and I FINALLY had them :p It was okay haha. Then we went to a shop for ice lollies and sweets/chocolate (like we didn’t already have enough!!) and then back to the station. Had so much laughter as they were ‘picking’ on me but it was all jokes. Rather funny 😛

Then on Thursday I had a lot of sleep and needed it haha! Just relaxed for the rest of the day to be honest. Then Friday I went to physio as been having a few issues with my left shoulder, then went to a shop to return a drinking bottle, went to another one on my way home for money for yesterday and then sweets again ha! I also did boring stuff like 2 loads of washing, emptying the dishwasher and tidying and hoovering the living/dining room. After all that I did some colouring and a run in the afternoon woo. Training for this year’s colour run 5k has BEGUN! I also cracked my bottle which was brand new still (like 2 weeks old) so had to go back to poundland to get a new one (in purple this time yay!) and met my Mum from work. Then returned to an evening of colouring and got that finished woo. Will include some photos of that later.

Yesterday we went to thorpe park for S’ birthday 🙂 Another very early start! Was a really good day except freaking out at the last thing we wanted to do. Due to my millions of eyesight problems I find walking in unfamiliar places in the dark very difficult as my eyes cannot judge the distance etc. So the more I’ve got older, the more I’m aware of it and the more I panic unless I know someone will definitely hold my hand/arm to guide me. I didn’t properly cry thank god (there at least a hundred people behind us) and the woman who spoke to us calmed me down and convinced me to do it. My best friend held my hand all the way through it, even through the tunnel (you have to bend down to get through) and we managed to it all except the last task. Too claustrophobic for her and I was getting bit panicky again anyway as the material was trapping you and right in your face. But it was a pretty good day overall and got back at 9pm :O

Today I have been extremely lazy. Virtually slept it away to be honest and had another lengthy conversation with the bestie bless her. Hope it helped her. Now waiting for my sister to come round (probably already here) and have food & play games yay 😀

Also since my last post I have a new addiction; adult colouring! It is becoming very popular worldwide. Evan (Oliver’s boyfriend) introduced me to it and now I am a massive fan of it too opps! I love love love it. So relaxing and takes your mind off everything. I went to see them the weekend my uncle died actually. Obviously it hadn’t happened when I set off, only whilst I was there. We had a wonderful weekend which started off with meeting some friends of ours. Then we went back to Oliver’s and watched tv, ate tea and went to bed lol. Well they did give me a present which includes a Harry Potter quote. My favourite quote as it so happens from the books!

Anyway I will *try* to keep this more updated. But no promises!